Addiction roll call

[webstar138]

Who else in this community has a past that includes serious drug/alcohol addiction? I've seen several other members mention it in various posts and thought it might be interesting to see who else has shared that experience?

I struggled HEAVILY with a IV heroin addiction for the better part of a decade. Jails, homeless, detox, you name it. Finally, after yet another birthday sitting in jail, I had enough and decided to get my shit together. Getting back into the gym was and continues to be my church as it provides self respect and community Everytime I go.

Edit: 2.5 years sober roughly for me

 

[Dannymurmaid]

Congratulations on the time sober bud. I struggled with alcohol. Started drinking more than I should in high school and then really went down hill once I left the military. Fortunately I have an amazing wife and son who kept me from really taking the down turn. It’s so easy to. I only spent a few nights in jail, used a lot of paid vacation nursing hangovers. Medication helped me a lot. That’s mostly why I’m here. Pharma has me feeling like I’m going through puberty again lol

 

[swansonnj2006]

I was addicted to opiates for the better part of my adult life till a little over 2 years ago when that attempt to get clean finally took. I started with the Va prescribing tabs and perks. I go to the mailbox every month and they were always there. When the “epidemic” started popping off I went to the mailbox and there was a letter saying I was cut off. It snowballed from there. Went for whatever I could get. I was on fett and nearly died multiple times. I’m not sure how but somehow managed to avoid legal trouble. In 2020 my 18 year old son was in a car crash and one of his friends gave him a Roxy/fet and he died of a of. I spiraled out for a while but woke up one morning and realized that I still have my now 9 year old daughter and she needs me. I decided to get right. Never look back.

 

[Eatforsize]

Struggled with Coke and crack since college…finally got a good job 6 years ago and managed to stay clean from drugs but not alcohol for 4 years fron January 2020- May of 2024…last summer I fucked up fell off the wagon hard…stopped working out..basically stopped working as well and was the most serious I ever was about actually killing myself…the moment of clarity for me to crawl out of the very deep dark hole I was in was when I walked away unscathed from a high speed police chase my dealer got into when I was in the car with him…thought for sure I was gunna die…but here I am…2 weeks after that I got clean from drugs AND alcohol and have been clean for over 6 months now…gear and bodybuilding are my outlet for sure…even though I don’t compete…I take it as seriously as if I did

if I’m not making gains in the gym my life probably isnt going very well at all

 

[BBBG]

Struggled with Coke and crack since college…finally got a good job 6 years ago and managed to stay clean from drugs but not alcohol for 4 years fron January 2020- May of 2024…last summer I fucked up fell off the wagon hard…stopped working out..basically stopped working as well and was the most serious I ever was about actually killing myself…the moment of clarity for me to crawl out of the very deep dark hole I was in was when I walked away unscathed from a high speed police chase my dealer got into when I was in the car with him…thought for sure I was gunna die…but here I am…2 weeks after that I got clean from drugs AND alcohol and have been clean for over 6 months now…gear and bodybuilding are my outlet for sure…even though I don’t compete…I take it as seriously as if I did

if I’m not making gains in the gym my life probably isnt going very well at all

Damn bro, thanks for sharing that. Holy shit! Right?

I’ve been sober since January 1, 2010. Keep it up. It really does get easier. You get to a point when you’re no longer the person you use to be. You’re still you, just better and there’s no looking back.

You made the best decision you could ever make.

 

[Eatforsize]

Damn bro, thanks for sharing that. Holy shit! Right?

I’ve been sober since January 1, 2010. Keep it up. It really does get easier. You get to a point when you’re no longer the person you use to be. You’re still you, just better and there’s no looking back.

You made the best decision you could ever make.

In the past I’ve always made exceptions for myself to be able to drink here and there….but this time I’m all in…can’t go down that road again…it’s a lot easier to turn down alcohol when your clearly on gear too…people don’t really expect us folk to be big drinkers anyways…just gotta stay focused

 

[newguy2]

IV meth user on and off, struggled with other things as well. Sober since 2012.

I am trying to watch myself with unhealthy desires to use gear. The injection part was weird at first and I'm aware I can have a an unhealthy relationship to the needle.

 

[BBBG]

IV meth user on and off, struggled with other things as well. Sober since 2012.

I am trying to watch myself with unhealthy desires to use gear. The injection part was weird at first and I'm aware I can have a an unhealthy relationship to the needle.

As long as it’s keeping you in the gym and devoted to this lifestyle, it’s not the same. All positive.

If you find yourself getting frustrated or the classic “fuck it all” and you start blasting tren in a fit of self-destruction then you know you need to drop it.

 

[newguy2]

As long as it’s keeping you in the gym and devoted to this lifestyle, it’s not the same. All positive.

If you find yourself getting frustrated or the classic “fuck it all” and you start blasting tren in a fit of self-destruction then you know you need to drop it.

I can see myself chasing the "feels". So far just on TRT but the desire for more is certainly there. Getting some other things sorted out first.

 

[PCT4ME]

AAS, rHGH, peptides, and ancillaries can serve as a health positive stand in for harmful addictions. All the syringes, pills, "fuck the law" aspect, the "ritual", all kinda scratch the itch of wanting to do something illicit and outside of society's rules.

 

[Sector]

AAS, rHGH, peptides, and ancillaries can serve as a health positive stand in for harmful addictions. All the syringes, pills, "fuck the law" aspect, the "ritual", all kinda scratch the itch of wanting to do something illicit and outside of society's rules.

I know this was meant as a joke but there is some actual truth to it

Low testosterone levels can make people feel depressed and unmotivated (in addition to putting fat on easier) Normal/Higher testosterone levels make you feel great and energetic, perhaps even more youthful. For some people, TRT is one of the best decisions they could make and has been described as life altering in a a positive way for most. Low T is a horrible feeling I wouldn’t wish on anyone.

I’ve had my T levels at 247ng/nl. You feel like straight garbage

 

[PCT4ME]

I know this was meant as a joke but there is some actual truth to it

Low testosterone levels can make people feel depressed and unmotivated (in addition to putting fat on easier) Normal/Higher testosterone levels make you feel great and energetic, perhaps even more youthful. For some people, TRT is one of the best decisions they could make and has been described as life altering in a a positive way for most. Low T is a horrible feeling I wouldn’t wish on anyone.

I’ve had my T levels at 247ng/nl. You feel like straight garbage

Not a joke at all. I mean obviously this isn't going to offset physical addiction, but like ex-smokers who use lollipops to keep their hands and mouth occupied to help stay off, I think all the work around a protocol can help occupy the mind and fill the "hole" in a similar way to the way acquiring, preparing, and using other addictive substances did.

 

[newguy2]

I definitely

Not a joke at all. I mean obviously this isn't going to offset physical addiction, but like ex-smokers who use lollipops to keep their hands and mouth occupied to help stay off, I think all the work around a protocol can help occupy the mind and fill the "hole" in a similar way to the way acquiring, preparing, and using other addictive substances did.

I definitely agree with this.

 

[calist181]

Seriously putting out the following scenario. What would your immediate reaction be if your wife/gf decided to throw all your shit out? Are we simply replacing one addiction to another, but somewhat healthier one?

I wouldn't go crazy, but inside I'd be really pissed. "Ritual" was mentioned earlier. That's what I feel whenever I pin. I have my alcohol swabs, syringe, vial, pin container. I don't feel anything like a high, but it's still something I have to do like brushing my teeth.

Yes, we can say no big deal and just order more. But if your family really wanted you to stop like an intervention, would you?

 

[BBBG]

Seriously putting out the following scenario. What would your immediate reaction be if your wife/gf decided to throw all your shit out? Are we simply replacing one addiction to another, but somewhat healthier one?

I wouldn't go crazy, but inside I'd be really pissed. "Ritual" was mentioned earlier. That's what I feel whenever I pin. I have my alcohol swabs, syringe, vial, pin container. I don't feel anything like a high, but it's still something I have to do like brushing my teeth.

Yes, we can say no big deal and just order more. But if your family really wanted you to stop like an intervention, would you?

That’s a tough question.

It depends on what leads up to that.

If I’m making life miserable or infringing on my love ones ability to be happy, then I would stop. Never use steroids, return to doctor prescribed TRT.

But if I’m not doing anything at all that harms my loved one, and they want me to stop just to stop, then I believe they’re infringing on my ability to enjoy life.

My wife has no problem with what I do. I tell her when I’m “on” and when I cruise. She wants me to be happy and I want her to be happy.

When Rec drugs and alcohol are abused, they destroy lives indiscriminately. I think that’s a huge difference. I think coffee falls in the same category (lol, I guess it’d be better to say it the other way around). It won’t ever destroy lives.

 

[Dannymurmaid]

Struggled with Coke and crack since college…finally got a good job 6 years ago and managed to stay clean from drugs but not alcohol for 4 years fron January 2020- May of 2024…last summer I fucked up fell off the wagon hard…stopped working out..basically stopped working as well and was the most serious I ever was about actually killing myself…the moment of clarity for me to crawl out of the very deep dark hole I was in was when I walked away unscathed from a high speed police chase my dealer got into when I was in the car with him…thought for sure I was gunna die…but here I am…2 weeks after that I got clean from drugs AND alcohol and have been clean for over 6 months now…gear and bodybuilding are my outlet for sure…even though I don’t compete…I take it as seriously as if I did

if I’m not making gains in the gym my life probably isnt going very well at a

Seriously putting out the following scenario. What would your immediate reaction be if your wife/gf decided to throw all your shit out? Are we simply replacing one addiction to another, but somewhat healthier one?

I wouldn't go crazy, but inside I'd be really pissed. "Ritual" was mentioned earlier. That's what I feel whenever I pin. I have my alcohol swabs, syringe, vial, pin container. I don't feel anything like a high, but it's still something I have to do like brushing my teeth.

Yes, we can say no big deal and just order more. But if your family really wanted you to stop like an intervention, would you?

I would wager you’re aware of who the problem is. Yours or her.. or maybe you both have bad things in the relationship.
If it’s you- make the changes in order to save your family.
If it’s her- leave and never look back. She throws your shit out… that lines crossed and it will never be anything less than that next time they’re upset.
If both of you have the… when we’re good, we’re great feeling.. the high is not worth the low, and for both of your sakes, leave.
Plus.. get jacked lol

 

[webstar138]

AAS, rHGH, peptides, and ancillaries can serve as a health positive stand in for harmful addictions. All the syringes, pills, "fuck the law" aspect, the "ritual", all kinda scratch the itch of wanting to do something illicit and outside of society's rules.

There's certainly a truth to this. As somebody who tends to "addictively" pursue an interest, or one track mind things, be if healthy or unhealthy, this seems to be somewhat of a substitute.

I don't correlate the two directly but it does scratch an itch in a weird way. That being said, the way I interact with my family and society as a whole is night and day compared to when I was using drugs lol. I am a contributing member of society now...the exact opposite in addiction

 

[CaffeineandKilos]

Alcoholic and past drug user present... I don't really remember how long, at least 6 years sober lol. Now addicted to steroids which I guess is better, still not ideal but at least they have a generally positive effect on me until I croak from gear related health complications

 

[PCT4ME]

Alcoholic and past drug user present... I don't really remember how long, at least 6 years sober lol. Now addicted to steroids which I guess is better, still not ideal but at least they have a generally positive effect on me until I croak from gear related health complications

Get addicted to blood pressure and cholesterol management (hooray more drugs we have an excuse to use!), and you'll live a good long life to enjoy your steroid addiction. Far longer than any other kind of drug addict, lol.

 

[CaffeineandKilos]

Get addicted to blood pressure and cholesterol management (hooray more drugs we have an excuse to use!), and you'll live a good long life to enjoy your steroid addiction. Far longer than any other kind of drug addict, lol.

Lasix and Telmisartan have entered the chat lol.... Need to figure out a decent cholesterol med to take tho. There's a whole shit load of random supps I stopped taking because omg so many pills LOL, I'm waiting a month to see how I feel and get some blood work and slowly add back in what I think I need a trashing the rest.

My wife the other day was like "holy shit how many drugs are you on?!" And I held up like 3 out of the 30 night time handful like "just these".(The bulk is just GABA and l theanine pills)