In the end, did you figure out how to make your pee pee bigger?Don't be jealous of others. I spent 25 years working, supervising, and setting up hospital and stat labs. The happiest day in my life was walking away from that stressful mess and extremely toxic work environment where everyone is obsessed with belittling. These status careers suck the life out of you, not so much when you first start(that's because you don't know any better), but as you gain wisdom and ask questions that's when it all starts to unravel.
Most of this career nonsense is ego, people too embarrassed and afraid to be honest with themselves that they really don't enjoy what they do, but the pay is good and society and familly bases respect on an endless list of conditions, causing people to live in fear of not measuring up.
My philosophy is that you can grow and learn anything you want, there's nothing holding anyone back from learning in the information age. When I quit working in the lab and worked for myself it allowed me to continue to study mathematics on my own having worked through probably 35 textbooks in these last 4 years, something I always wanted to do, but didn't have any time at all because I was working 12-14hr days. When I was working I was constantly trouble shooting, solving one problem after another, but I wasn't growing at all, I was simply refining and honing something I was already good at and that is true for most people, matter of fact we reward people for this which locks people into this way of life with more pay and security as long as you agree to show up to your half-way house everyday like a model prisoner.
Life is very short, I enjoyed these last 4 years delving into vector calculus, linear algebra, abstract algebra, real analysis, mathematical statistics, discrete math, proofs, topology, this is what I've wanted to dig into for a long time and everyone of these textbooks cost me no more than $5-20 to purchase as they were used university textbooks from ebay. I figured up what it would have cost me to do this in person at the local university down the street and it would have cost me $300/credit hour and as much as $200-300 for each of the textbooks, that's why higher education is a huge scam, I think I spent maybe $300 total on this huge pile of basically new textbooks. The beauty of all this is that none of this is career related, it was simply because I wanted to increase my understanding of how our universe works.
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