Sorry if I sound like I am discouraging you. I am just trying my best to keep you from doing something you will regret later on. Make sure your training and diet is on point to reach your goals. When everything is in place, then you can add gear and it will amplify everything. You will get the most out of gear if you are already making progress. Please don't do oral only.. When you are older, you will look back and regret doing oral only. You will eventually have very low test, it's just not worth it, you would at the least need hcg to make some test. If you really are serious about getting on gear, just start with test only. You will see how you respond to a certain amount of test, you will learn to manage your E2, and you will see what side effects you get, how your blood work is affected, etc. This is very valuable because test will be in all of your cycles/blasts. It might be better if you try some peptides first to get over the fear of pinning (you wipe the vial and the area you will pin, then you pin into the fat, you won't even feel it most of the time).