Project 235 lbs classic to open division

[Lord]

Body dysmorphia aside, are you stepping on stage soon?

I feel small compared to previous physical states I have possessed before . I would like to compete in the battle of Tx in Dec if my health permits .

 

[rootrobot]

You must be lacking in self awareness. It took you less than 2 weeks to go from "oh shit I need to do TRT only!" to "this jacked old dude is doing test and nand so it's ok for me to as well!" and bumped up your doses. This isn't the first time either. You do crazy cycles, and then hit kidney failure and even got "some small shit" called sepsis once.

It's ok to step away and get healthy, Lord. You really do need it for your own benefit. If you can't see how much or how fast you swing from cycles to unhealthy to needing to get healthy back to wanting to do more in very short periods, I don't think anyone here can help you.

Yeah - clearly an addiction issue. Ultimately do what you want - it's your life. Don't pretend you don't get what we're saying though, you're not dumb.

 

[That Guy]

I feel small compared to previous physical states I have possessed before . I would like to compete in the battle of Tx in Dec if my health permits .

We all feel differently than how we actually look. I think it's because we all strive to continually improve ourselves. We concentrate on flaws we can only see. You look bigger(in a positive way) in that last black & white picture you posted than you did in older ones.
You're not new to this. You know the risks and benefits. Use your experience and knowledge with your decisions to make sure the benefits out weigh the risks.

So you compete and win the Texas event. What good is the recognition, medal and trophy, if you end up in the hospital? From what I'm reading, everyone here would rather see you training than being in the hospital.

 

[AlexDavis43]

I feel small compared to previous physical states I have possessed before . I would like to compete in the battle of Tx in Dec if my health permits .

Rooting for you bro.

 

[Lord]

Rooting for you bro.

Thank you Alex

 

[CountryGains]

Bro, you’re on a short path to the dialysis clinic.

Please take care of yourself. This tournament in December isn’t worth it.

 

[CountryGains]

Do

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I feel very small lol

you have an abscess in your arm/shoulder?

 

[Lord]

Do

you have an abscess in your arm/shoulder?

Nope

 

[Lord]

 

[Lord]

Can’t believe the thickness or mass I am holding on just 300 mg sus only . Literally just 300 test . It’s been six weeks since my last hospital visit so I am hoping to get blood work done soon to see how my organs especially liver and kidneys have responded to the 300 mg sus weekly .

I am currently 5 ‘9 210 lbs .

 

[CountryGains]

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Can’t believe the thickness or mass I am holding on just 300 mg sus only . Literally just 300 test . It’s been six weeks since my last hospital visit so I am hoping to get blood work done soon to see how my organs especially liver and kidneys have responded to the 300 mg sus weekly .

I am currently 5 ‘9 210 lbs .

Probably not well, not to be a dick.

Listen to what you’re saying. You talk about hospital visits as if going there regularly is normal. You were just there 6 weeks ago, sick, with fucked up bloodwork, and you decided 300mg of sustanon a week is in your best interest?
This is tough love but just stop man for gods sake

 

[Lord]

So it’s been 3 weeks or so since I have injected anything . I decided I want to travel abroad soon and live with a friend from college. She lives in Ethiopia . As an avid student of African studies and personal cultural reasons I want to see what life is like in Africa . It’s also a lady I had a great connection with from the past and so I would like to have a child . I know it sounds extreme . But I have abused steroids for 11 years . I don’t want to continue on with steroids currently at tho point in my life and also I would like to have a child . While In Africa I will use whatever they have to continue my bodybuilding journey while attempting to have my first child. Soon I will begin using hcg or hmg and clomid .

I was thinking maybe I could use peptides as they don’t affect hormones that impede fertility but can u travel internationally with peptides? They aren’t considered controlled substances I don’t believe.

 

[Lord]

 

[Lord]

Still holding 212 lbs while off trt or any type of anabolic . Hope I can retain all or most of my mass while running hcg , hmg , and clomid with peptides .

 

[That Guy]

Sending you positive vibes. That's a huge step. Do what you gotta do to get to where you wanna be in life. Wish you the best.

 

[Lord]

Sending you positive vibes. That's a huge step. Do what you gotta do to get to where you wanna be in life. Wish you the best.

Yes very huge step as most will tell u Africa sucks and I don’t believe it is as luxurious or comfortable as say life in the United States or Dubai or Europe lol but it is more of a ancestral soul cultural thing for me . Plus I would like to have a child and seen other parts of the world . And also coming off testosterone after being on it for 11 years I’m sure will be a unique change.

 

[mmaphdmba]

I hope you stick with it, dude. It's probably going to be a great change even if Africa is a bit of rough going compared to what you're used to. Fill up your cup with new experiences, relationships and more, and try to stay happy that way. Good luck my man.

 

[Lord]

The top one is now being off all anabolics for six weeks now roughly weighing 205 -210

And at my biggest weight of 216 lbs on every thing looks like I’m going to explode

 

[Lord]

 

[Lord]

Hey guys I’m alive and well and had a check up . Tell me what u guys think ?